...Which is why the persistent tendency, in FF, to kill off Ray K and Fraser either during the CotW episode or immediately after really gets to me. Let them have their happy ending, dammit!
:;g:: And I laugh here because I am guilty of enjoying the not-so-happy endings for these two as well. I am guilty of wanting to write them. Banish me to a desert island and I will demand katallison's "End of the Road" to take with me. But, yes--some stories do appear to be just a mean-spirited attempt to deny Kowalski/Fraser the happy ending generously provided by canon. And those just piss me off.
And that's also why, in my secret internal universe, Stella and Ray V stay together.
You know my favorite Stella/Ray V? "Kowalski is Bleeding." cesperanza creates such a wonderful sense of joy in Vecchio, an oh-my-god-look-what-I-found-and-it's-all-for-me kind of joyousness. I take such pleasure in his pleasure, in that story.
Me, I tend to have two secret internal universes. And I'm boring--my universes don't vary: it's either one or the other, I can't seem to wrap my head around multiple incarnations. There's my Kowalski/Fraser, Vecchio/Stella version of the world where everyone lives happily ever after. Vecchio/Fraser that pre-dates Kowalski/Fraser is optional. And by god, it's a great place to live. ::g::
But I do have a taste for the bittersweet, so there is my other secret internal universe, the Ray/Ray universe, and in that universe there are unhappy endings and disillusionments all around. In that universe, Vecchio/Fraser never happened, Kowalski/Fraser went to Canada and couldn't make it, and Vecchio/Stella did a crash and burn somewhere in a bowling alley in Florida. All in the service of the Ray/Ray vibe.
But I have a limited imagination: those are the only two ways I can imagine it happening. Vecchio and Fraser, sure--before Kowalski shows up. Never can I imagine Fraser choosing Vecchio over Kowalski (though I suppose there's an argument for a compromise Vecchio/Fraser post Kowalski/Fraser, in much the same way Ray/Ray is a compromise post Kowalski/Fraser). Ray/Ray, sure--but only after the Kowalski/Fraser relationship has gone south--I can't imagine Kowalski choosing Vecchio over Fraser. For me, the joy of Ray/Ray is in the compromise, the bittersweetness, the ghost of might-have-been.
Let me say here and now, by the way, that "the mosh pit" is a fantastic description of Ray/Ray, far better than my own over-extended kink metaphor. I absolutely plan to steal it in the future. Just so you know.
Well, I like it. There's a craziness, a no-holds-barred, reckless feeling to a lot Ray/Ray. Seems to fit. ::g::
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:;g:: And I laugh here because I am guilty of enjoying the not-so-happy endings for these two as well. I am guilty of wanting to write them. Banish me to a desert island and I will demand
And that's also why, in my secret internal universe, Stella and Ray V stay together.
You know my favorite Stella/Ray V? "Kowalski is Bleeding."
Me, I tend to have two secret internal universes. And I'm boring--my universes don't vary: it's either one or the other, I can't seem to wrap my head around multiple incarnations. There's my Kowalski/Fraser, Vecchio/Stella version of the world where everyone lives happily ever after. Vecchio/Fraser that pre-dates Kowalski/Fraser is optional. And by god, it's a great place to live. ::g::
But I do have a taste for the bittersweet, so there is my other secret internal universe, the Ray/Ray universe, and in that universe there are unhappy endings and disillusionments all around. In that universe, Vecchio/Fraser never happened, Kowalski/Fraser went to Canada and couldn't make it, and Vecchio/Stella did a crash and burn somewhere in a bowling alley in Florida. All in the service of the Ray/Ray vibe.
But I have a limited imagination: those are the only two ways I can imagine it happening. Vecchio and Fraser, sure--before Kowalski shows up. Never can I imagine Fraser choosing Vecchio over Kowalski (though I suppose there's an argument for a compromise Vecchio/Fraser post Kowalski/Fraser, in much the same way Ray/Ray is a compromise post Kowalski/Fraser). Ray/Ray, sure--but only after the Kowalski/Fraser relationship has gone south--I can't imagine Kowalski choosing Vecchio over Fraser. For me, the joy of Ray/Ray is in the compromise, the bittersweetness, the ghost of might-have-been.
Let me say here and now, by the way, that "the mosh pit" is a fantastic description of Ray/Ray, far better than my own over-extended kink metaphor. I absolutely plan to steal it in the future. Just so you know.
Well, I like it. There's a craziness, a no-holds-barred, reckless feeling to a lot Ray/Ray. Seems to fit. ::g::