Help!

[thefourthvine]

Someone wrote a story called "Covet." It was Stella/Fraser, if that jogs anyone's memory. I want to rec it, but unfortunately I didn't record an author or a bookmark for it. I checked the usual suspects, but no dice. Google has failed me. I am bereft.

Help me and I will love you forever. Well, actually, I probably already do love you forever, but there's nothing like a timely link to help enhance the love, you know?

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[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

You did, you had, I just haven't had a minute to put the blasted thing up yet. I'll do it today! (And how tickled am I that you liked the story without knowing it was mine?)

[thefourthvine.livejournal.com]

That is such a relief, knowing that it actually wasn't there, because I thought I'd lost either my mind or my computer skills. Not sure which would be more of a problem.

(And, what, you thought I loved you because of name recognition? Ha. The truth is, I read almost all stories without any idea who wrote them, because of the way I process them. I look at the author's name when I enter the story in the database. Or, as with "Covet," not even then. So my love for your stories has nothing to do with, for example, my love for your icon. All your fantastic back-catalog gets you is the surety that I will read your new stories. Though I expect you weren't exactly sitting up nights worried that I might not.)

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

Well, everyone has their insecurites--sue me! *g* Mine's kind of around the name thing--I've changed once already to convince myself that it wasn't some knee-jerk name recognition thing (man, those first locs to Speranza were the best evah.)

In other news, I suppose I should tell you that I have another Fraser/Stella half finished. *g* They're my new het pairing of choice! (Actually, they're pretty much my only het pairing!--go figure!) Though the F/K people don't have to worry; I love Fraser/Stella, but they're not an OTP. Quite otherwise, in fact!

[pearl-o.livejournal.com]

(Actually, they're pretty much my only het pairing!--go figure!)

*makes sad face of that *other* het pairing*

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah. That too. *g* (But I haven't written that yet! I will, though--promise, swear, cross my proverbial heart!!!)

[thefourthvine.livejournal.com]

Notice me very tactfully not commenting on what it means that Stella/Fraser is your het pairing of choice.

Although, you know, I can see it now, after you got me started with that evil, evil story. I can especially see it from the other side of "Covet." Fraser watching Stella all analytical, "What did he love? What did he want? What did they do?" (because I will just never surrender on the F/K OTP thing), which Stella could so easily misinterpret, "He wants me, I could take this from Ray, I could fucking push back for once and if I have to see the hurt-puppy-betrayed look in his eyes at least this time I'll have earned it," which would lead, in the fullness of time, to Fraser thinking "Did you touch him like that? Did he like it?" while Stella's thinking "Fuck you, Ray. You want guys and you let me think it's something wrong with me all those years? You want to fuck him? Fuck you." You know, a more aggressive Fraser, an even more fucked up Stella.

And, oh my god, you did not just talk me into buying Stella/Fraser. You did not. Or maybe I just talked myself into it. Jesus. I need to lie down now, maybe take some psychoactive medication or something.

Yeesh. Stella/Fraser: for when Kowalski and Fraser just aren't broken enough!

*flees into the wilderness, totally hysterical*

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

Actually, the new Fraser/Stella is much LESS angsty and broken--it's a whole different take than the above (not that there's anything wrong with the above!) But hee hee hee--if you bought that, you'll eat THIS with a spoon!

[thefourthvine.livejournal.com]

Nooooooo! I'm not sure I can handle non-angsty Stella/Fraser. It's a pairing meant for angst and a missing-party threesome perspective (i.e., we're together because we're focused on a person who isn't here). Just tell me they don't end up happily together while Ray writhes on the sidelines. Please? Because that might kill me.

Scared now. Must go re-read happy ending F/K for reassurance.